Dream on July 29, 2007

There is a story, I just can't remember it exactly. I remember bits and pieces of it though, so I'm just going to write it down.

 Caramel Apple stand, with a whole lot of candy and other sweets. It's like one of those kiosks in SM. We were circling it, examining the sweets.| I think we bought some.

There was a big door. The tyoe that is almost reach the ceiling. Resembles the one in "Pan's Labyrinthe". I was pushing the door open. ANd wehn it oepened, it led to a long hall, with windows on each side. At the end of it is another door. This resembles the hall in "Anastacia". And I was walking down the hall.

I remember an elevator, at first there were many people in it. Then there was only 3-4 people left.

There was also an escalator, I think. Similar to those in a mall. Or perhaps we are in a mall.

I remember Tope was one of the people in the elevator, but we didn't talk to each other. He was just there.

I remember when there was only 3-4 people in the elevator, there was an ackward moment. Oh, Tope was one of those 3-4 people.

The rest of the bits and pieces are really vague that I can't really put them in words.

Dream at around 8ish-930ish on July 14, 2007

The first part which I remembered was that I was outside and taking photos of myself. The photos mostly have the blue sky as background and lots of wind.

I don't know why but we were miscalling someone.

The next part, I went to meet up with my mom and her friend, Aunt Sophia. The camera phone that was using to take my pictures is hers. We were in a diner, and my little sister and Camille were eating Holy Kettle Corn. And I was still taking pictures, then I accidentally clicked on something on the phone, and I was navigating through it, and I saw a long list of miscalls, which turns out to be us. We forgot her phone was with us, so we were calling her and no one was picking up.

Next next part, I was on my out of north gate, DLSU, nakasabay ko si Rizza,  and I saw Heidi and Loren, both Ateneans, trying to enter DLSU, but the guard wouldn't let them. I patted Loren on the head and said Hi to both of them, and went on my way. On my way to the LRT, I saw Aye, Tina, Thea, Joma, Kleon, Ruth, Erika and Tope. They were waiting for Rach, I think, they were saying they can't enter DLSU either, when they wanted to shoot something in Miguel. Then I remembered (in my dream) of one of their Multiply/ YouTube pages, wherein they made lots of videos, sort of news reporting style things with lots of comedy. In my dream, I was feeling a little left out, so I said something like cool, I would be doing a shooting too. In my dream, it was a Friday. We ran into Rach, but she didn't join us. They went into a poor excuse of a restaurant and they ordered bowl of fish/ meat balls. It was huge, as in really huge, as huge as a… well the meat ball things are as big as a soccer ball. And then suddenly the meatballs started growing arms and faces with growls. And they were asking me if it really is like that. I said no, I never ordered something like that. They then tried to "resize" the bowl, somehow the handles in Adobe Photoshop appeared so they click and drag to resize it. (Hey, it’s a dream, it can be surreal as it can be). But then the meatballs are fighting their way out of the ball. So what they did was rip the meat balls apart. They are like clay. They ripped out the arms and I said give it to Tope, the arms are still grabbing air, because if it attacks, it's okay. Then he cocked his head and pointed a finger at me. I gave me superficial smile. Then I said, mauna na ko, since I still have a shooting, which is actually the ay after, but I was just using that as an excuse to make me feel less left out. So I went out of the poor excuse of a restaurant and I was about to cross the street to the LRT. But then stopped, returned. Then  I was walking back and forth from the restaurant.  There was Cello's pala next to the restaurant. Then, on the nth time that I want back to the restaurant, they were already on their way to DLSU. And I saw MG and Tin.  And I called out, even they turned, but I approached MG and Tintin, so they continued walking. I was pointing Tope out to MG and Tin, when we were already in McDo. I was saying, yun yung crush ko, who was walking next to Kleon. MG said he looks familiar, like their classmate and I said no, that's my school mate, and they said too bad we don't have pictures or else we could've compared that. I said es, I have pictures of him, but he was wearing glasses. What kind of idiot start wearing glasses on the day of their graduation? Anyway, then I said to MG and Tin that I made fun of him,  and tanga tanga ko. Is it part of my nature to make fun of just about anyone? I couldn't help it. I slapped my hand on my forehead.

Ang tanga tanga tanga tanga ko. I haven't seen him in more than a year, and I couldn't even bring my to YM him. Instead, I print- screened his avatar of a dramatic photo of himself. Is that stalker-ish?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Idle…?

Even my YM is asleep… 

According my Yahoo Messenger that I have been idle for 29 days etc. Even though I am online every night. And yeah, so I fell asleep again… but not for 29 days…

I am officially a hypersomniac

It's a Saturday, and I know there are things that I have to do before next week, but…

I went to sleep last night at around 2, which is well, normal for me. Then I woke up at around 12nn for lunch, sothat's 2-3, 3-4, 4-5, 5-6, 6-7, 7-8, 8-9, 9-10, 10-11, 11-12… 10 hours. Then after lunch, which is around 1ish, I slept again on the couch, I was just sitting there and watching TV then got bored so I lied down, and slept until 430ish, so that's more or less another 3 hours. So it's not even night time yet, and I already had more than my fill of sleep.

I am officially a hypersomniac- the envy of all insomniacs.  

While I was sleeping

This is my second blog entry with such a title and content. The other entry was written more or less a year ago. But it still holds true.

While I was sleeping the world passes me by.

I reread some parts of "A Place Called Here", since I can't find the book that I am currently reading the past few days, and I read abou the part about Jack Ruttle's girlfriend, Gloria, who also slept. She slept while Jack was going through the disappearance of his brother, the death of his mother, etc. 

I sleep through everything. Even though I vowed that I will no longer sleep in class this term, I still did. I was falling asleep while sitting upright, I was falling asleep while facing a computer. I was missing out on a lot of my lessons, especially in GRAPHIX, I don't think I have learned anything from it this week, I fact, because I was too busy dozing. And in ADVANOS and NETWORK too, the room is perfect for sleeping, because the tables big and it is really cold, is not an excuse. I need to get up, and pay attention.

I fell asleep today at around 5 and I woke up at around 9. Yet another 4 hours wasted in the land of sleep. And I know, I had dreams, but I can't even remember it. But rainy days are perfect for sleeping, and so that's my excuse, and not because I'm sick, like my little sister thought.

Maybe I'm a hypersomniac (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypersomnia). According to this article in Wikipedia (I rely on Wikipedia a lot even though it is not to be considered a valid source):

Description

Hypersomnia is characterized by recurrent episodes of excessive daytime sleepiness or prolonged nighttime sleep. Different from feeling tired due to lack of or interrupted sleep at night, persons with hypersomnia are compelled to nap repeatedly during the day, often at inappropriate times such as at work, during a meal, or in conversation. These daytime naps usually provide no relief from symptoms. Patients often have difficulty waking from a long sleep, and may feel disoriented. Other symptoms may include anxiety, increased irritation, decreased energy, restlessness, slow thinking, slow speech, loss of appetite, hallucinations, and memory difficulty. Some patients lose the ability to function in family, social, occupational, or other settings.

Hypersomnia may be caused by another sleep disorder (such as narcolepsy or sleep apnea), dysfunction of the autonomic nervous system, or drug or alcohol abuse. In some cases it results from a physical problem, such as a tumor, head trauma, or injury to the central nervous system. Certain medications, or medicine withdrawal, may also cause hypersomnia. Medical conditions including multiple sclerosis, depression, encephalitis, epilepsy, or obesity may contribute to the disorder. Some people appear to have a genetic predisposition to hypersomnia; in others, there is no known cause. Hypersomnia typically affects adolescents and young adults, although the most common causes of the condition for the two age cohorts differ.

This introduction is from the National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Strokes website

Diagnosis

A specialist may administer the Epworth sleepiness test to determine the extent of hypersomnia in a patient. A self test is available at The Epworth Sleepiness Scale. An adult is considered to have hypersomnia if he or she sleeps more than 10 hours per day on a regular basis for at least two weeks^{[citation needed]}.

Maybe I should try the Epworth Sleepiness Scale (http://www.stanford.edu/~dement/epworth.html). The results of my self test:

 

9 and up

Seek the advice of a sleep specialist without delay

 I scored 13 points. Oh my…

I need help.

I need to wake up from the land of sleep and enter the world, before it continues to pass me by.

What I don't want to miss more or less a year ago, I still don't want to miss now. This is a video I grabbed from YouTube, made by this guy, Brian (http://youtube.com/user/D1g1tal1) of the song "While you were sleeping" by Casting Crowns.

My professor in Introduction to Philosophy was asking us the other day, how after all the different philosophies that we have learned in class, how would we integrate that with our Christian faith. I just thought about that, because that is one of the things talked about in the song, because people have their own ideas now, that sometimes, they question the existence of God, or not believe in Him altogether.

I don't know, I have learned about the different philosophies after reading "Sophie's World", and I, I don't know, I didn't really question my faith. I am not a devout Protestant who goes to church every Sunday, or whenever there is a Youth Service. In fact, I rarely go to church. But despite that, I have a very strong faith in God. 

This blog post has gone to another direction, but I shall continue…

 I think that even if you go to church every Sunday, it is not necessarily that you'd belive in God, or have a strong faith in Him. In fact, when I'm in church, I feel like I don't really belong, and the song "Stained Glass Masquerade", also by Casting Crowns. And I don't think I really learned much in church, because in the Youth Service that I have been attending last year, for my church service requirement in Religion class, the brother can't really relate to the problems of the youth, or my problems anyway, that is if I have any.

I think that it is by His actions that I believe in Him. I don't know about you, but I believe in miracles. Because there are times, when it is unexplainable, that things ust suddenly went my way. And it happened many times, so it can't possibly be damn luck. Besides I don't think that things truly happen by coincidence. I think that there is a reason behind everything that happened to me, and everyone else in the world. And whenever I pray, I think they have been answered in one way or the other. And that is why I have such a strong faith in Him, because I know that He is there for me.

Besides,  I think that sometimes, people needs something to believe in, to hold onto. Because sometimes, when you feel completely hopeless, I think that faith, or that belief in a something brings hope, because it gives you another option, another choice. "If you were asked to choose between the devil and the deep blue sea… "- Ms. Velasco.

So even with all the different philosophies, I still believe.

There is a time though when I was partly agnostic, and a big fan of David Hume. But there was never a time, when I totally not believed. Yes, maybe, it God, heaven, and all the angels up there with Him, can be proven, but according to David Hume, it can't be disproven either. So I was somewhat on middle ground, then.

And back to where I started from, I do not want to miss the return of Our Lord Jesus.

I read "Left Behind" the series, I watched the "Left Behind" movies, and I DO NOT WANT TO BE LEFT BEHIND. That option is just to grim. I especially not want to be left behind, because I was in the land of sleep, or too preoccupied with the world that I miss the important things.

I want to stop missing the world while I'm in the land of sleep. But I also want to stop missing the important things in life, like family and friends while I'm in the world. And I especially not want to miss heaven…?

As existential beings, we are always given a choice. And I chose to believe.

Because faith, faith is all we really need.

I think I have woken up, after typing this very long blog entry that will, without a doubt, surpass 500 words. I just pasted this in Microsoft Word, and the word count was 1,320 words.

I have woken up. I have chosen to wake up from my sleep.

Actually, I think that when someone who doesn't make any choices for himself, is as if he was sleeping. Since you can't really make any choices when you were sleeping, you are just there, there might be fragments of your subconcious in your dreams, but you still don't have control over it.

So here it is, people, I have woken up. I will begin living my life, as the existentialists say.

I have woken up.

Dreaming on the couch

After dinner last night, I sat on the couch and fell asleep. For two hours. I was supposed to do the dishes, but was well, sleeping. In my dream, I was arguing with my mom on who would was the dishes. But in my dream, I eventually lost and got up to do the dishes. And then, I'm not sure if it was in my dream, or if it was really happening, that my mom offered to do the dishes. So I continued sleeping. It;s weird I know. And when I really got up, the dishes weren't washed. Funny, huh? Well, I found it funny. Aside from the fact, of course, that my body ached after that two hours of sleep.

Dream about Graphika Manila

I had a nap from 5-7:00 ish, that would probably explain why it is 1:00 and I haven't took my bath or am sleepy.

Maybe I'm just excited about Graphika Manila which would be on August 11 (if I remeber correctly).

I dreamt that we were lining up to enter the venue of Graphika Manila, I bought the professionals ticket, while my other companions (my sisters, Joyce Cayabyab, Benedict and Nikki, and other Jubileeans, and some Lasallians), has the student tickets. So I get to sit in front with Nikki, who also happen to have a professionals ticket too. I remember carrying a big backpack, I think I went to an outing and used that bag, and didn't remove the contents from it. When we were checking our things in before we enter the venue, I opened my bag and saw boxes of pudding, Chamyto and bottles of Summit flavored water. I took two bottles of flavored water and a bottle of C2 out and asked the girl, who was in charge of the deposited bags, if I can bring the drinks in, she said yes, because they won't notice anyway. So I deposited my bags and went to the lounge, yes, apparently there' s a lounge. It looks like the IMAX theater (not that I have been there, but I've seen pictures). Then, suddenly my parents came too, they got free tickets from a Raffle draw by Moomedia. And I was telling them about my org. And then I remebered that I was supposed to be in charge of some sample works that is to be displayed but it totally slipped my mind. And I was thinking of why I didnt have time to prepare for it.

Then I woke up, remebering that it is still June 30, and there's still some time to prepare for that. I breathe a sigh of relief.

By the way, I am seling Student tickets for Graphika Manila. It's only Php 500 if you buy it before July 6. The normal price is Php 750.